Do you ever “shoot yourself in the foot” and then beat yourself up about it for days or weeks, or even longer? (Different foot shots can affect you for different lengths of time). Sometimes it can be so bad it consumes every thought you have. Whether you’re watching a movie, driving, at work, learning to play the banjo, or studying your ninja handbook, all you can think about is when you pointed the gun at your foot and then proceeded to pull the trigger. The best occasions are when you don’t even know that you’re doing it. At first it is startling, until you realize from the pain shooting through your body that you’ve actually just shot a bullet into your own foot! Then the process of breaking it down in your head, “who, what, when, where, why, and how did I shoot myself in the foot”. This process will repeat itself over and over and over until you grab a hold of your own thoughts and pull yourself out of the gauntlet of questions going through your head.
Remember that time when you were a kid and you set a fish free (stole) from the open market and dropped it in a pond because you thought it was going to live again, only to realize the hard way that it was, in fact, not going to live and that you are going to get in so much trouble you’ll have to stuff your pants with tissues because of the paddle beating you’re going to get? Or maybe the time you got in the back seat of the car on a long road trip, so your little brother could pee in a cup and dispose of it easily from the front seat? You laughed hysterically as he tossed the cup out the window and it sprayed all over the windshield of the car next to us, who also happened to be driving a convertible with the top down? And then, as you feel beads of wetness hit your tongue while you laugh, it dawns on you that your window is also open, and you now have your brother’s urine all over your face?
Well, the truth is, you’re gonna shoot yourself in the foot here and there. It happens, its part of what makes us who we are today. I no longer steal dead animals, and I’m no longer an advocate of tossing pee out of a moving car. The key is not to shoot yourself in the foot for the same reason twice. You sometimes do something that you think is right, only to find out you were wrong, so learn from it and move on, all the while keeping your head up.